Posts Tagged ‘Love’

Feelings can be so strong and confusing

11 January 2009

The last time that I felt as weird as I am feeling just now on the 1st of July 2008 when I moved to London, away from my family, away from my friends, away from my country. I was sitting on the plane and I felt… alone. When I arrived at the youth hostel I had a shower and then I felt ready to explore the city – but I just didn’t have anyone to share it with. As soon as I moved into my flatshare my whole situation improved a lot. I had a place to put my stuff and call it home. Then I met my boyfriend and now this became some sort of home to me.

On New Years Eve all of my friends came to visit me. It was a weird feeling, because suddenly all of my past came to see me, I enjoyed it, but I also noticed all the things that annoyed me about them. I felt sorry about it, but it was too much for me. I just couldn’t enjoy the time.

So now it was time for me to go back home and visit family and friends. I arrived in Germany on Sat morning and went straight back home. It was such a weird feeling. It didn’t feel right, I didn’t want to touch anything, and everything felt strange and different. I missed my boyfriend and my new home so much. Now after another day everything seems back to normal, it seems I have never left this place. The most wonderful months of my life seem to me like a faint dream and I feel like I am forced to go back to my own life. I just can’t wait to leave this place tomorrow and go back home.

Make you feel my love

12 October 2008

Random Sex or love?

1 October 2008

“I refuse to believe that love is at random.”

– Charlotte, Sex and the City